i have you

Where am i? I’ve never seen this place before…none of this is familiar to me. I feel vulnerable…I hate feeling vulnerable. I feel insecure…nothing ever makes me feel insecure. I feel lost…I have never felt lost being home. All of these feelings, these things I have thought of as negative manners in the past…are they now my new way of growing, my new way of becoming stronger and stretching my mind to the reality of what life really is? I believe so, as I sit here and type, it is becoming apparent. We must put ourselves out there, we must make ourselves feel insecure. The only way any of this I doable though is because I have you, the only way any of these new things are even bearable for me is because I have you. The only way I am able to conquer any of these news things life seems to want to throw at me is because I have you…come to think of it, the only way I am able to make any sense of life up to this point, is because I have you. The only way I am able to see that this life is heading in an amazing direction, a life anew and more beautiful than any I’ve ever known, a life unknown to any couple until now, a life more fulfilling than one could ever dream of…is because I have you. Having you means I can figure out my own mishaps, learn to deal with my own fallouts, begin to change the faulty parts of who I have become, and know that the person I will continue to grow into will be the best ME ever. Having you means knowing I have loved fully, with all I am, with all I know to be whatever love is. You mean the world can make sense, a life can be completely full of only the good things, even when a negative vibe steps in it can still be covered up with a smile. Having you means one can be happy forever…and I can only pray I can live out a life showing you how much that really does mean to me. 365