Always up

You give me the motivation to write. You give me the motivation to paint. You give me the motivation to create music. You give me the motivation to listen, to love, to hug, to encourage, to smile, to believe, to have hope. You give me the motivation to be me to be the person I know I am and love that I am.  You give my heart everything it has been craving everything it has been longing. what I’ve always said I want, I have found. What I say I want to do with my life, I feel it happening. The words you say to me are beautiful, they fascinate me. I have been waiting my entire life to hear these things, to hear them back that is. I have spoken things like yours many times, whispered into ears, mouthed the words across a room, written them, paragraphs full..but only to regret having said them instantly, only to realize I had just said them to the wrong person and that I would be the only one whispering those sweet words from heart.. and now sitting here sweet sounds of norah jones rolling behind me dad on the couch in his peaceful world book in hand mind floating soaring through the pages each word reviving rejuvenating him mom finishing the last scrape of vanilla ice cream out of her tiny wooden bowl poking at the hard surface of her ipad in her techy world…you sit next to me my heart pumping my thoughts swaying in my breezy mind my face unable to put down this smile I cant get over the way you make me feel. 

I have walked miles only to find the edge I have flown across oceans over countries through an entire continent landing in places I had no idea what to expect and loving that thought of the unknown because only then could I maybe find this something I crave and long this something I have been setting my heart up for.

Why do we travel? What do we long? Continue to dream don’t ever be in a place without another dream life may get rough but it as sweet as ever right now in this moment and don’t forget these times these smiles these people these waters theses kisses these sweet sweet moments alone with each other exploring our hearts through our eyes through our toes through our silence. I want to always treasure the sweet memories in life but I think more important more amazing is the fact that the moments the days the memories to come will only be sweeter.  I cannot capture all that I want right now with my hands on this keyboard I want to share so badly I want to put it all into words but I am falling short I have not been writing enough lately.

Ill tell you this though, I am so ready for this life so ready for this moment right now so ready for tomorrow for next month for next year for 5 years from today 10 years from yesterday.

I feel so free.

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