you must

I am living. I am here on this earth. I feel. I see. We were once so young, so innocent. Those feelings have gone,
new things take the place of old, we forget, but we remeber whats important. It hurts, but it will pass.
I gaze into your eyes. My heart smiles. I smile. You smile. Oh its there, that love, its there. But why are you holding it inside, let it out. Pour it out. Onto me. But you won't, you never will. I don't understand. I never will.
And now, you've broken my heart. You've pounded my heart with a bludger. I cannot determine one feeling from the other anymore. They are all one big mess. I try meeting new people, wonderful people, but I've forgotte how to act, how to feel, forgotten whats normal. I treat te next like i used to treat you, but its not normal to be like this with someone you just met. But i don't remeber what to do, how to take it slow, or what slow even is.
I suppose that means that all this is nessesary for me,i need to know these things. Oh how i dont want to though, i want
to have one peron that i can love fully, and will love me back. It will come though cora, in time, we are already living this life, no turning back. You must keep your eyes focused, don't lean on others like you want to.
You must be strong by yourself, you must. You must.