rain

I squeeze your hand so tightly. I grit my teeth and squeeze harder. I hate to let go. Every good bye tears me apart. Tears flood down my cherry cheeks. Rain slams down onto the roof, making my heart pound ever harder. With every beat, a tear pulses out. I look down, there is nothing in my hand. I close my eyes, and picture your face, your perfect smile. The tears double. The rain plummets down. My head falls back onto my neck. This hurts so much. It is like this every time. But I cannot stop it, and I don’t want to, because that means no more you. I want you. I want all of you all the time. I want to spend forever with you. But I cannot tell you that. Not just yet. Or can I? Are you thinking the same thing? How will I ever know. I love you. My heart is taken over. If I let you go, it will never heal. I know it. I want you. I want all of you all the time. I stare deeply into the flame of the candle placed next to me. A single orange flame. Time does not effect her. She is so graceful, so beautiful. She is so warm, so perfect. Her scent. Apple pie. I don’t want to blow her out, I don’t want to ever take everything away. But I have to eventually, poor flame. You still plunder my mind. The tears are back now. My ratted shirt is soaked. (256)